The music slowly fades as I fall asleep.

It happens almost every night; It becomes a nightmare.

I now lay there, terrified to sleep.

But also terrified to be awake. 

Which is better? Being awake or asleep?

The memory in my mind makes me feel numb. 

I feel weak, helpless.

To think being awake will keep my from nightmares

But my reality has become a nightmare and now the question is

when will I wake up?