It's been a week
since I've cried
believed all this was a mistake.
But He doesn't make mistakes in the grand scheme of life
because now I know I'm right where I want to be
or rather where He wants me to be.
and confident in the person I am becoming
or the person I discovered
underneath the image I present to society.
I met someone
who brings out the best in me
lets me experience pure laughter
makes me want to live
and grow to my fullest potential.
Right guy, wrong time
because I need to self-construct
before I self-destruct
and I need to continue learning
how not to let my happiness depend on another being.
But if he's still here
when I successfully complete my cleansing process
I won't be as guarded
and it won't take me as long to open up to him
or the next one who comes along with my best interests at heart (and in mind).
I've set goals
met new people
experienced amazing things
and seen "stuff"
in the past week.
I haven't forgotten our shared memories
or entirely moved on
but I'm moving
and in my heart I know this is the right decision, not a mistake at all
because I've finally discovered who I am
and for the first time
I'm genuinely happy. ~K