I am nothing if I’m not loved,
loved by the one that sees beneath
me and pays me no mind at all.
But I am your backbone, confidant
and biggest motivator; even when I
am overseen by you. What a waste.
Sitting and hoping that one day you will
notice me again, if you had your biggest
support on your side through everything.
Rejection after rejection, broken hearted
again and again, made me realize he had no
care in the world about me nor paid me any mind,
until he pressed charges against me and filed a
restraining order. At that moment,
I knew he was completely over me, moving
on with his life. My heart had fallen into the pit
of my stomach slowly burning away. The milk
chocolate that wrapped around me from my
head to my toes became a harden armor.
Protecting my mind, body, and soul from
anyone that THOUGHT they could control
me again. For any dude that thought it was
cool to play with my heart and think they can
get away with it. Not again will my heart and soul
be toyed with and stomped on when pleased. My
armor contains my deepest thoughts and feelings. It is my
shield; that will be broken by the fairest, left as a statue.