anxiety
It rises
again and again
like a curtain of night.
I know not when it may come
or if it will come at all.
I hope: maybe today?
No – for here it is again.
A swarm,
a cliff,
a blow.
I am gone,
lost to the world.
Constantly falling,
constantly failing,
constant. Always.
Or am I okay?
I feel calm.
I am happy?
No I am not.
It came again:
a swath of terror.
I can’t breathe.
Hands on me:
holding me
stop stop stop
“are you okay?”
stop stop STOP
I am not okay.
I am drowning.
I am lost.
I need help.
Please.