Anxiety

Mon, 04/22/2019 - 10:42 -- rlwise

Oh, no. I feel it again, that feeling I hate.

It overwhelms, overtakes me.

It’s subtle at first, makes me slightly uneasy

And then builds behind walls I can’t see till it breaks free.

Everything was just fine now my smile disappears,

I look around waiting for someone to hear

Everyone hates me I can tell by the was

They talk to each other when they think I can’t hear.

The worst-case scenario is bound nor to happen

I’ll just make it worse if I move or try to stop it.

My palms start to sweat and my chest feels real tight.

My skin starts to shrink around me so tight

There’s bugs crawling on me, running to and fro

I’m getting hot flashes I hate this. There’s more.

The people around me turn into swarms off bees and wasps.

Don’t let them touch me it hurts.

I’m shaking and picking a spot on my skin.

Scratching and digging my nails in for a distraction.

It hurts and I focus my mind on the pain.

Someone is watching me and laughing again.

I sit in the corner and watch the monsters run by.

I’m safe I’m safe I’m safe I repeat to myself.

Someone please rescue me, please make it stop.

I whisper but don’t move my lips, not at all.

No one can know that they’ve won I must hide,

All of the feelings I’m feeling inside.

I’m scare why can’t somebody help me get out?

I’m stuck in my body is suffocating me now.

It’s the end now I know I won’t get out alive.

I watch my life pass with my eyes stapled wide.

 

“I saw her in the corner rocking back and forth

and tearing her skin off and looking around paranoid.

I walked over and sat next to her and gave her a hug.

“I’ve been there” I said, “Anxiety sucks”.

“You’re ok now I promise. Just take a deep breath.”

“1, 2, 3, 4, 1, 2, 3, 4, I’ve got you now. You’re safe.”

 

11-6-2017

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