And so I study my heart,
My brain, my ass of
And so I wrote and read in scarlet blood
In salty tears, in sips of Cuban coffee
Freshly brewed every hour or two
From the minutes when the sun’s fingers peek through the snoring trees
To the hours when Apollo waves goodbye over the sleepy mountains.
And so I wore a dull armor, with all its chinks and scratches
Its white fluttering cape, torn and stained
Wield an old rusty sword and carry a worn out shield and a second hand copy of Gray’s Anatomy
Into the dimension that is your body.
And so, the bits and pieces of the cosmos that somehow bound themselves together
To form the valleys of your brain,
To form the muscles in your lungs
To form the fibers-those translucent carbon bonds- of your being
Becomes a world that I traverse
An Earth in which I can bathe in its rivers of blood
Climb its mountainous breast
And explore the caverns of the heart
A world that belongs to you
Where I am a frequent visitor
A world that is completely yours
But you can never see it.
And so I know more about you
Than you will ever know about yourself
And so you will have to trust me
And so I have to be an unwelcomed invader into the Eden that is within your body
A holy temple of worship that someone like me clad in
Blood stained, coffee stained, ink stained
Iodine stained, guilt stained, debt stained, stress stained
With bags of charcoal underneath my weary, knowledgeable eyes
Enters in blasphemy,
In the mission to bring you back to the kingdom of the Well.
And so, I lay my ear on your chest
The smell of Isopropyl alcohol overpowered the scent of Cuban coffee and oranges on your bedside table
The soft thumps and gurgles in your world echoed back
And I understood.
Ask me why I chose the masochistic vocation of medicine and I reply
That I too have my own universe
Invaded by aliens in White Coats and latex gloves
I too am ignorant to the world they get to see
Perhaps it is sheer masochism
Curiosity or pride
But I had to know
I had to enter the House of God
I had to sate my thirst, my lust
For your Universe
And so, I became a Doctor.