And it cuts like a knife

Mon, 12/12/2016 - 16:20 -- Beana
  • Tears in your eyes you ask me "Should I have left him the first time?"
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  • The car is silent. 
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  • You found the pictures on his computer
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  • You are scared silent. 
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  • You hear her voice on his phone
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  • You weep silently. Silent.
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  • You are alone in this, you are alone in this
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  • Who will take you now, three kids, aging looks,
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  • Who will love you now
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  • Is he your only option
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  • When did the conversations taper off to silence
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  • When did your heart become silent?
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  • Silent
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  • Should I have left him the first time
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  • Or the second 
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  • or the third
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  • When did you convince yourself that this was the best option for you
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  • You sit in your car on your phone for hours
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  • You don't want to be inside. 
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  • When you see him you see her. You see them. 
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  • But you stay silent. You stay silent.
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  • Tears in your eyes you ask me, "Should I have left him the first time?"
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  • The car is silent.
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  • I tell you "I only want you to be happy."
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  • The thought makes you cry
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  • I hold you in silence. 
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  • And the silence is violent. 

 

This poem is about: 
My family

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