I did it agian

I let myself dream

I let myself get caught up in hope

Just to be pulled down to the ground agian

I got caught up in promises

The promise to see someone

She worked hard to tell me at least

But now here I am in my occprep crying

I hate myself

I hate myself so god damn much

I let myself be human

I let myself breathe

And I let myself hope

Hope doesn’t do shit

It just fucking lets you done in the end

It always does

And if that doesn’t make everything seem bleak and obslutle let me tell you something

Sometimes the person you believe loves you the most loves everyone else above you