When you fantasize of that caress and places its never been
shiver at thoughts of hearing warm words you've never heard
ectasy you've never experienced
only to come down and realize you're your own surprise,
Then you know that imagined kisses won't solve this
won't extinguish the fury in depths deeper than any appendage can go
cannot erase the darkness of memories you conceal behind soft replies to those who think they
the extent of your kindess and joy
the immensity of your emotional chaos
When fantasies are not enough...
When pencils break when your energy attempts to be expressed,
your emotions numb and tears resist to fall at mere confusion
do you accept yourself?