I always try to imagine something good coming out of what I am about to do
And then it gets knocked down with a 
"what if?"
I feel so confident 
Ready 
I feel like anything in that moment is possible 
That maybe this is my time
I'm told that I need more 
But can't be told what that more is
I go places where I am told "No" 
What was that more?
It frustrates me 
I want to be accepted 
What am I missing?
WHY CAN'T ANYONE HELP ME?

I grew up hiding in in a tight space 
In my head 
I go to it when I feel rejected 
Don't fool this space as a paradise    
It's so hot, wet, full of worries and many dark nights 
It's a continuous maze that feels like there is an ending but you won't know until you hit a wall
I have tried to give this space a light
But when that "what if" becomes a reality 
Darkness floods 
I want to be accepted 
And that's the darkness in my head