The Abyss
They say we’re all unique
Each perfectly imperfect
But I see nothing good in my reflection
My head fills with self-loathing
Never pretty enough
Never smart enough
Never enough
These thoughts, they’re dangerous
The way they just slide in
Replacing your happiness with doubt
It’s intoxicating
And I can’t get out
I can pretend to ignore everyone else
Pretend their comments don’t hurt
But when the hate comes from inside
Well, it’s too late for you
You’re poisoned
Your thoughts, your conscience
Poisoned
All because you are never enough
Constantly wondering how much more you can take
Louder and l o u d e r
You’re endlessly screaming and no one seems to hear
Or care
Suddenly when you can’t take it anymore
Silence erupts in a kaleidoscope of nothingness
You’re falling into a chasm
Down
Down
Down
Finally you’re almost at the bottom and you realize
You don’t want to be here anymore
You don’t want to fall so deep that you can never return
Suspended in air you hover as you search for a way back up out of the darkness
But the empty void that you’ve entered is now full of water
Dark and cold and churning around you
You’re engulfed
And there’s no escape
After mere seconds of struggling you give up
No one will be waiting for you anyways
But wait
Bubbles envelop your head as someone dives into the water above you
Rope in hand they grab onto your waist and pull you out
For the first time in your life you’re not alone
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.
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It’s not often that I walk past that road
Where the earth is still split open from my journey to the abyss
Sometimes I peer over the edge and wonder what it would’ve been like
If I had let the water win
But I will never make that plunge again
For I now know that I am not alone
And as long as I keep that rope tied around my waist
I’ll always have somebody to catch me
To pull me out of the abyss