Absent From The Body

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I am physically not here 

The sound of my own heart I can’t hear 

From every tear that cascades 

Every fear once made 

I am absent from the body 

They say beauty is in the eyes of the beholder 

but what if my vision becomes blocked by walls and boulders?

My insecurities become a barricade 

Hindering me 

Preventing me from becoming the full Bri 

So you ask me what am I, who am I without my smile as a filter              

I ask myself the same question as my reflection stares back at me 

I am absent from the body 

and I could see outside of me. 

I cannot accept myself for the mistakes I’ve made

and 

Sometimes I feel like giving up 

It seems like my best just ain’t good enough

I am a dark skin complected 

no make up wearing 

Thick thigh misses 

I am, more than my appearance 

I am extroverted 

I am, a reliable and dedicated individual who respects traditions and prizes responsibility

I am, known for my social skills, strong will and administrative abilities.

But, of course you can’t see that through a picture 

so here i am to paint a picture, no filter

I am flawed 

tummy bruised with burn marks and chicken pox

heart bruised with scrapes from others mistakes 

I feel trapped 

within my own self conscience 

  but nobody’ll believe I feel so self-conscious

Who ever said I was Flawless ?

All of the Flaws that me feel less

Will soon become the flaws that make me hurt less.

and I’I'll always remember 

even stars can’t shine without darkness

This poem is about: 
Me

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