Abandonment

The pain you caused me is like no other the stress the anger that will always haunt me. I have so little memory of you just small little snippets of you leaving and not saying goodbye. My heart has a hole that I thought only you could fix but I guess I was wrong. I’m about to be 15 in a month and I feel like you don’t know me even though I’m your first born. My life is great and a blessing to me but my heart is still empty waiting for you to love me. I feel unwanted and replaced all the time do you enjoy my pain? Do you know I cry? A little drop of a tear falls down my face wishing you would come and wipe it away. I have your picture hanging on my wall hoping one day it will crash and fall. I never want you to go through my pain but I want you to understand that it’s not a game. Your good at one thing and that’s playing mind games telling me for years you were coming down here. You got my hopes up every single time but now I know to never be surprised.

“Sometimes, the only soul that can mend a broken heart is the one that broke it. For they are the ones holding all the pieces.” -Patti Roberts.