You ever watch Donnie Darko?
That scene about the spectrum:
Between two bounds, the heart goes—
The emotings of fear and love.
I felt so sure about it before;
That love existed, and surely it does.
Thick skin patches up my pores
For love's not as kind as I thought it was.
Soft and subtle as air and dandelion;
Slow burn like fire and clothing iron;
Deep as all underwater treasure.
Therein diving for was a pleasure.
You love so much, you fear to lose it.
And when you do, be wise to moot it.
It's understood love ain't so easy.
A long while, love made life uneasy.
Should it be the last thing on a young mind,
School, family, focus all stepped aside.
Took much time to redefine
The truth in my world and all its lines.
Day after day I gain direction:
Psalm 91—with God's protection—
Psalm 23 for inner peace,
For love wasn't love in 2016.