I’ve always hated you
You were always there whenever my big, dark brown eyes
Aimed straight at the boy whom I used to value
You make me want to change the person I am
I am not as loud as the others
I am not 100% confident (or at least I want to be)
I am not as beautiful as the girl with long, lean, lustrous legs and a breathtaking face
Who can get any guy all over the world
I am who I want to be; myself
Stop possessing me and make me scroll through the boy that I’ve liked Instagram
Take an eyeful look at his pictures
And accidentally double tap on his pictures
Stop making my heart disintegrate into pieces and pieces as if my heartstrings may no longer love again
Stop transforming me into this crazy, psychotic human being which I am most likely not one of them
Stop whatever you are doing to me; physically and emotionally and just GO AWAY
There are a basket full of flowers to be fond of so why me?!
Why am I the one that you picked out of the basket?!
I am just a lonesome flower who wants to be left alone without anything cutting me
Friends are like cement. The longer you stay, the harder it is to leave.
Unless the cement is broken.
Those type of friends that has a slender body and they only eats a bowl of garden salad with ranch dressing and you’re sitting across from her and you’re eating a chicken sandwich from Chick-Fil-A with a side of waffle fries
It makes you look like a wild mammoth and that friend look like a majestic peacock which
makes YOU stare at them like death is waiting.
Listening to the chatter of long time friends
The jealousy starts blooming
It will never end as I want it to be
The word, Jealousy, keeps rambling on into my brain like two birds having a conversation with each other
Chirp, chirp, chirp
Why would you even leave me neglected and broken inside?!
Why would you text me if I wanted to go out if you’re just going to act like I’m a waste of time and just throw me out of the gutter?!
Can’t you see that I’m acting like this?
It’s this anguish pain I feel inside
I bet you I can be fixed
More than a broken bone
Someday I will have a smile that will light up Dubai
A smile that will make things better
Screw you, jealousy