DO I MATTER?

Mon, 04/19/21 - 12:07 PM

by Debi Lyn

 

Why do I matter? I mean, for real...

am I only here to better the way that others feel?

I LOVE making people smile... and wiping away tears.

Been doin' so my whole life long... but after all these years,

 

Ain't no one holdin' me and sayin' it's all gonna be..... just fine.

Ain't nobody sayin' to me, "I just want you to be..... all mine."

Ain't a single person lovin' me and tellin' me

I make their heart soar free --- soar freeee

 

All I feel right now is pain.... and sadness.

Ain't no smilin', happy sunshine bringin' laughter, joy, or gladness.

Ain't nothin' left this moment..... but the hurtin', the cryin, & the madness.

All I feel right now..... is BADness.

 

WHY do I matter? I mean, for real...

am I ONLY here to better the way that others feel?

I LOVE making people smile... and wiping away tears.

Been doin' so my whole life long... but after all these years,

 

Is it wrong to want to be found valuable my self?

Am I condemned to sit my sorry ass alone on this forgotten shelf?

Doesn't anyone see ME and wish to give all THEY have?

I'm so empty always pouring out my all; where's MY Sir Galahad?

 

I give up and start again cuz I can't bear to be so alone, but

rarely does a man come callin' without wantin' met needs of his own.

The few and far between without clear selfish motives

neither have nor show the signs worth taking note of!

 

Whyyy do I matter? I mean REALLY... DO I matter?

What, what's the matter; what's the matter with me?