Because I loved you I stopped spending time on myself

I started wasting away waiting on you

waiting for the next glimpse of your smile

forgetting to sleep and eat

remembering to cry

I was so wrapped up in make you laugh

I forgot to tell you why

 

that's not love

 

this is my life

you are merely a sweet passerby

but at some point I need to come first

 

your smile keeps me going

but my words keep me safe

I want to tell you my nightmares

to show you my pain

explain the scars and every fear behind them

 

but I don't love you

 

I cannot be open to you

I can't be honest with myself

I long to see your smile

your warm embrace calming my nerves

but you won't ever know

 

I want to love you

 

to tell you everything that plagues my being

so that you might understand

but I don't want to scare you

you have your life and I'm honored to have been a part of it

but for now I set you free

I'm a work in progress but someday I will find you

 

Because I love you