Inanimate
If I was an inanimate object
I wouldn't feel the things I feel
But If I was an inanimate object
Nothing would be quite as real
I'd never be sad
I'd never be mad
But I'd never be happy either
I'd never have a chance
To even stand beside her
I'd never be anything at all.
So why do I wish for it sometimes
So badly.
It'd be a world without sight
A world without plight
A world without feelings
Only paint
Cracked and peeling
Only fate
Continually sealing
Only a blank slate
Never altered
My mind has faltered
Once before
But I won't let it
Anymore
Come on,
check it!
I'm out the door
Footprints on the floor
My thoughts cloaked in chloroform
The pit of my stomach is a storm
But nothing'll let me truly mourn
The end of this smorgasbord
Of turmoil
A pot at full boil
Will never cool
When it's watched
By a fool
Who's only botched
Every attempt
At expression
He might as well be tax exempt
Cuz his stupidity is a religion
If I was an inanimate object
None of this would be real
If I was an inanimate object
I'd just be creating this mind project
All the situations that never were
All the pains that never occur
Cuz they can't get beyond my skull
Then suddenly there's a pull
I'm sailing through a sea
Of invisible obstacles
If I could see
Without these cloudy opticals
If I could be
Simply a melting popsicle
Blissfully in the summer sun
But instead I'm rocketing into outpace
Not sure if I have the right face
Not sure if my confidence is high enough
Cuz I know I feel shy enough
Cuz I've already cried enough
Wait,
I mean,
I'm a man!
Winds's like a cool fan
I've got a sick plan
Walk up and say
Hey.
Do you ever notice me
Cuz I notice you
From your head to your shoes
Your sure good at not tossing clues
So I hope this'll be me breaching your ruse
Of indifference
not meeting boos
Of rejection
A reflection
Of how I see myself
A collection of past mistakes
That took a toll on my health
So many moments I wanna retake
To get rid of the stealth
Help!
If I was an inanimate object
I couldn't have taken a step
If I was an inanimate object
We'd never have met.