Part of a collaboration I did with M.V.P - Most Valuable Poet
What lies within?
Passion that's exploding from a heart holding, expression,
Expressing what eye see out of my eye view mirror..
LIFE
that's crumpled up in front of me,
in the palm of my hands,
I'm holding...
ME,
Looking at my life through me,
my broken-ness,
I'm broken,
The cracks in my hands are open,
I'm walking my fingers through this puzzle,
tryna put the pieces together,
who am I?
do I even know what lies inside?
what lies... are lies that I told,
traded in honesty for deceit cause my past never graduated to the present,
memories of mistreatment, hurtful feelings put a fork in my stomach and fed me lies,
I ate every last one and learned how to cook em up, adapt and be a liar myself,
past moments changed how I looked at my face in the mirror eternally,
hatred became my only vocabulary,
It's unusual for me to be myself that's what I believed since I was eight,
a mask,
has been my only expression,
never letting anyone take it off or even see how hard it's become,
it's heavy,
so much weight to carry because it's not me entirely,
it's lies that I let sink into my skin and transform me into something that's a false reality,
but I adapted,
I gave allowance to my past and it took all my money,
my heart and soul,
I let it take power over my body,
defining every part that I owned,
locking me up,
putting bars on my heart,
closing it up,
chasing away my reality cause I was already caught by the distortion of my thoughts,
changed for good,
what lies within is a young women trying to understand what damaged her,
what put her behind silent walls,
what made her scared of life itself,
what lies is a long journey of eyes, discovering her untold story,
it's buried deep down inside, so she's digging deep,
for the treasure, the gold that gives off a shine on the surface
found not by looking in
it lies,
within.