Who Am I?
They are burned into my memory
Words I cannot forget
I replay them over and over
Analyzing them again and again
"You aren't good enough"
Is it true? Is this reality?
"You'll never succeed"
Constant reminders of my mistakes
My inadequacies
The wrong clothes, the wrong makeup
The wrong friends
Why am I so awkward?
Why do I say such stupid things?
Constant reminders of how different I am
"You'll never be happy"
Who can I trust?
Who are my friends? My confidants?
"Can you believe she wore that? Can you believe she did that?"
Judgment all around me
Criticism all around me
Constantly worried, anxious
All I have is me
"What a loser"
Wait, that's not me!
Wait, that's not true!
Years of being told I am different
Years of being told I am awkward
Yet it never broke my spirit
All those years made me strong, not weak
All those years made me unique, not different
All those years helped me find my voice
I am not a loser
I am me, not you
I am me and only me
And I am enough.