What If
I'm scared to let people in
to let them know that I have a problem
to see if they can help
depression is a taboo subject
especially in a christian home
because its not a sickness
you are just not strong enough
you obviously are in it for the attention
because you're a middle child
or its a late form of rebellion
some honors kids do that you know
I don't reach out for help
because that means I would have to tell them
tell them I cut
tell them I have thought
about ending it all
and I'm scared of what they will say to me
Why do you cut
you have no reason too
nobody you loved died
its not like you have a bad home life
your parents dont beat you
obviously you have no reason to be depressed
that means you are just in in for the attention
because thats all you are
an attention seeking bitch
You havent really thought about suicide
if you really had you wouldnt be telling us
you would go through with it
because everyone who is depressed
doesn't want the help
that means you aren't depressed
you just want some of the spotlight on you
because you can't get it any other way
I know most people wont act like this
but some will
and those ones who do
are the reasons that I struggle
I struggle to talk to people who can help me
even my best friend
because what if
just what if she is one of the few
and i lose her friendship forever
so im scared
and i dont know what to do
because i want to tell her
i believe she can help and will understand
but i always get stopped
before i can open my mouth
because of that small little question
What If?