Suicidal
The word scares me
I try to avoid it
I don't say that I am
Suicidal
It scares me
Am I suicudal
I avoid the pain
I skip over it
Like skiping over a soundtrack
My mom does not know
I am glad she does not know
I'm scared what she would think
I'm scared
I don't want to be like this
I cry as I slowly pull back the razer
It pierces my skin
It leaves scars
Some of them hurt
Some don't
Some stay with you forever
Some disappear
Some are deeper than they appear
The wounds sometimes are not on the body
They are where the battle starts
In the head
My head is going crazy
My inner demons
They have come back
They creeped up from my pain
They want to win this war
In my mind
I think they might win
I need help
I don't want them to win
My demons are back
And they are winning