A year ago,

I was meshuga in the mind,

I was caught up in a shoddy lifestyle.

I wouldn’t have thought about exceptional conditions.

 

Now in this time,

I pense that extraordinary events will happen,

I am living a subsistence life,

Redhand in the moment.

I don’t worry about the past.

 

One year ago,

I couldn’t let go of the one I loved the most,

Someone so dear to me,

That I was bats in the belfry.

It starts to haunt me every second.

 

But now,

I have learned to let go of the dead,

I mastered the thought that the departed is gone, they cannot come back.

I experienced feelings that were unused,

And know how to handle them with care.

 

As the days flew by,

I would have grieved over the same event.

I sat in my room and just wrote, till I no longer felt.

I was just a girl looking for what anyone wants…

Just Happiness.

 

Here and now,

I find the joyous in everything I do,

And I stop to think if it can ruin me in the end.

 

Before,

I flopped in my room and moped

Nowadays,

I am out and about looking for adventures.

 

Smiling a little more,

Frowning a little less.