Pain

She sits in silence
Listening to her heart beating
One, she says to herself
As her heart beat quickens
And the razor slices her skin
Two she says
Another slice
She continues this process until she feels light headed
She drops the razor on the floor
She collapses next to the sink
She comes to and picks herself up off the floor
She goes to bed and has nightmares
He is standing in front of her and as she chases after him
He leads her to a cliff where he floats off the edge but does not fall
She goes over the edge and falls to her death
She awakens to her heart racing and sweat falling down her face
She cries for a minute, but no longer
She gets dressed for the day
She tries to cover the scars without wearing a long sleeve shirt
It doesn't work
She throws on a long sleeve shirt
Drags herself to work
Goes through the daily motions
The day is done
She goes home to do the same thing again
To her surprise though
Tonight when she gets home
He is sitting in his car outside her house
He asks to come in
They sit at the table in silence for a while
Then he breaks the silence noticing her long sleeve shirt
"Aren't you hot?" He asks in a concerned voice
"No" she replies very calmly
He reaches over and grabs the sleeve of the shirt and pulls it up
He has a horrified look upon his face
As he revealed all the slice makes up her arm
"What have you done to yourself?" He asks looking very concerned now
"I have been relieving the pain you left behind with me" she says
He looks at her and tells her "no, this is not healthy"
He can see the tears starting to gather up in her eyes
He looks at her and says "I am sorry if I caused these, I had no intention of doing this to you"
He walks around the table towards her and embraced her
She broke down
She let it all out
She asked him "why did you leave me?"
He said "I thought it would be better for you to not have me in your life, but I see that was a grave mistake"
He embraced her even tighter then he himself started to cry
They just sat there hugging and crying together
Then he said to her "I do have to get going sadly"
She let him go
As he slowly started to drive away she went back to the bathroom
She grabs the razor and instead of waiting in between each slice
She did slice after slice
Until finally she lost to much blood
She fell upon the floor with no hope of getting up again
She forgot to lock the door after he left
The next day he came by
He knocked with no answer
He opened the door slowly
Sensing something wasn't right
He ran towards the bathroom
There laid upon the floor
Her body covered in cuts
He knew if was to late, but lost all rational thought
He kneeled down next to her
He yelled at her to wake up
He tried giving her cpr
He finally called the ambulance
He sat there on the floor next to her body
The ambulance came and took her away
He found a note on the floor before leaving
It said
"The reason I smiled is gone
My reason to live is gone
I saw him one final time
He cried with me, but I question
Were they genuine tears
Or were they tears of pity?
Whoever comes across this
Make sure he knows how much he meant to me
He was my one and only love
I wish for him to be happy
Now he no longer has me to hold him down
I love him as much now as I did then"
He regretted doing what he did
He wishes he could go back and tell her how much he loved her

This poem is about: 
Me

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