and it gets so hard sometimes I -- I just wanna break down and cry.. i cant get these tears to fall down i-- i just want some release, some freedom... but i tend to take after my ancestry, im so strong its hard for me to be vulnerable.. I need you Jesus! All your strength and wisdom.. cus sonetimes i-- i just wanna close my eyes jesus, and never open them again... My scariest of nightmares seem like the sweetest dreams, compared to these bitter realities! Im praying Jesus.. I--I try to be so strong that i--i am so weak.. Jesus! I--I put on so much of a show, a spectacular appearance that i--i should win an oscar! See Jesus! I--I got this terrible Scar on my soul, and Jesus! all of the world keeps patching it up with peroxide and band-aids.. but Jesus! Everytime i--get comfortable, thinkin its healing.. it gets a lil uncomfortable and ripped off my chest, taking more and more of me away Jesus! but im coming to you now Jesus! scar wide open!