Love & Her Lovers
Dear Lover,
Love says my heart has been calling your name for eternity
She knocks on my door every night silently
She slowly slides through the cracks of my heart and watches me ache in stillness
The moon lets her run free during the quiet hours
She completes her prophecies and sews hearts together
As if they are toys made for her amusement
I’ve grown accustomed to her sitting on the foot of my bed
She sings about the wonderful experiences you’ve encountered
Stories of endless adventures
Soon she stops and stares at me
Tears form in my puffy eyes
Sadly, my name never makes an appearance on your journey anymore
Love says you think of me relentlessly
I have doubt festering in my mind about what she says
I tell her to get lost
She carries your emotions with her
Begging me to listen to your thoughts
I always refuse
Fear is heavy on my shoulders
Love says I need to stop being stubborn
To accept the connection that burns inside of me
It’s not easy when your heart burns hollow with pain at the slightest glimpse of me
I still don’t understand why she wouldn’t leave me alone
I enjoy convincing myself she’s wrong
It’s easier to blame your rejection on my lack of excellence
Sometimes I let her into my imagination
Love never disappoints my starved heart
She places me in your warm arms
In a dim lit room
While curious raindrops watch us through the window
Your soft breathing is precious
Vital for my existence
Your scent awakens my primal instincts
I hold on to you tighter and tighter
With fear that the animal kingdom won’t ever understand this divine connection
I must protect you at all costs
I rarely sleep
Observing every detail of your sleepy face
It’s enough to fuel my spirit
When I’m bored, I place my cold toes on your warm body
Watching you jolt awake
You whisper curses at my childish nature
My laughter intoxicates you with a smile
You proceed to kiss my forehead
I do the most foolish things to gather your attention
Eventually, the imaginations become too painful
I ask Love to stop
She holds my hand while I scream your name into my pillow
It never gets easier having the same soul as you
No ritual is successful in cutting the chord that links our hearts together
I’ve accepted my eternal fate of loving you
Love tells me it’s time to reach out to you
To urge you to listen to your heart
Fear fills my body with disgust at the thought of another dismissal
But I know Love is right
Deep in my heart I know the truth
Love visits you too
I know my voice fills your ears
Penetrating every brain cell with the image of my face
Love urges you to accept the expansion she has in store for you
You dedicate all your energy towards running away from me
But I know you aren’t successful
Please stop running…
I’ve decided to write you
After many anxious hours of hiding
After many long nights of crying
After many long conversations with Love and our angels
I’ve asked the universe for signs and reassurance of the truth that dwells in my heart
I am certain you will read this letter
Just to discover that I’ve only used words that manifested from your subconscious
Nothing I have mentioned is foreign to your soul
My lover
It is time for you to come home
With all my grace
Hannah