Endless nights I dream of myself

standing at the end of a lake

with my toes in the sand,

the water my fears,

and the sky in my hand.

The ripples whispering,

all those terrible thoughts,

My parents dying 

and a future that rots. 

The sand that's beneath me

carries all my memories

of days without meals

and nights full of anxieties.

A day without money,

a day without food, 

a day without family 

this, I've lived through.

But an eternity is a long time

to live without something, 

and life is short

to have to much rmembering.

My family I cant leave

nor my dogs

nor my books

and overall my morals 

which is something we need,

But somethings for sure

I've lived without much,

Rights refused,

and souls forgotten 

I live for my Future

something that will never be bargained.

Because a life without a future

means no fears 

and if I never pass these seas  

I'll never wake up from this blur.

So if there's something I would need

for the rest of my life

it wouldn't be the friends, or the money that I wish

it would be a future for which I fight.