Insanity
Maybe I am going insane.
When I want to break down,
Cry for the stupidest thing.
Cry over the fact that I hate myself,
That I will never be good enough for you,
Absolutely not for myself.
Maybe I am insane,
When I think that my life is unimportant,
That I am merely a burden.
A burden to a family that works so hard,
To have a child who can't love herself.
Maybe I am insane,
When I have a dream for change,
To make a better world.
To create what I have not found,
So I live with self-doubt.
Maybe I am insane,
When I've thought of pain,
How it is easier to face,
Than tell others of my struggle,
And try to get better.
Maybe I am insane,
When I learned to scream,
Because I felt that nobody would listen.
'Cause I was lost in their ignorance,
And felt alone.
Maybe I am insane,
Because I try to help other,
And yet I can't help myself.
So I hide it,
And try to do both.
Maybe I am insane,
If I am admitting this,
That I have no control,
An am lost beyond belief.
I am insane,
But no therapy will help,
Cause how will they understand
What I feel when they don't actually care,
When they only want money,
They aren't really there.