I'm Not Sure
I’m not sure how
It happened,
only that I feel lonely
all the time.
I’m lonely
surrounded by people—acquaintances, friends, and strangers alike—
I’m lonely
around my own family,
I’m lonely
staying home alone,
watching as people’s pictures pop up all over my page.
Perhaps I was always alone, but
I was Ignorant then. Now,
I know.
I know I’ve been replaced.
New friends are always so much more exciting.
And I know I shouldn’t care.
She obviously doesn’t.
Besides… Things happen. People change.
God, I know. I know.
I’m not sure
What I Want to Be When I Grow Up or How to Get There or What I’m Going to Do with the Rest of My Life,
which is problematic
and utterly terrifying.
I’m working on it, but not fast enough.
I’m not sure
What changed this year
Where all these feelings are coming from
When the number of likes became so important
or even How to make it all better
I’m not sure what the future holds.
I don’t have all my answers yet,
but I know I shouldn’t let that get
to me.
Maybe I’ll never have all my questions answered
And that’s fine;
they just needed to be heard.