To the boy who tainted my heart:
Once upon a time you showed me the world,
A love that was so strong and so unusual, but I knew you felt it too,
You took care of me and in return I gave you my trust,
Oh how naive you made me feel.
I think often of the night when I was too helpless to say no,
And in that moment my trust meant less to you than my fragile body.
I didn't think it was wrong, afterall we were in love.
The few that knew told me this wasn't okay,
But I was blind to their concerns.
We both grew and my willingness to please you was no longer enough.
You didn't even have the courage to dump me in person,
While I recovered you went off to find someone new,
And you never let me show you how much it hurt.
As if breaking my heart wasn’t enough you became a bully,
Using my secrets to push away anyone that trusted me,
Blaming me for crimes I never even committed.
There is so much I wish I could say, but you won’t listen.
I want to trust again, but the scars glue me down.
To the boy who tainted my heart, I want you to know that I forgive you,
Even though you never apologized.
I want you to know that I am happy,
And I have fallen in love again.
I want you to know that I won’t let him break me the way you did.
One day you will understand your sins,
And on that day you will become a man.