I smile

Wed, 07/20/2016 - 22:59 -- Delne

I had a one way ticket to a place where all the demons go

Where all my broken dreams went to die

The place where my soul tried to fly

But I still painfully forced a smile

I hid my demons within me

In hopes they would stop screaming enough for me to think

But they never did, they only got louder

So I hid in my room 

Drowning in my own tears

Suffocating in my pillow

But I still woke up with a smile full of regret

Don't let them see your weakness

Don't let them see you fall

Never give your bully the satisfaction

No means no but somehow it gets confused with yes

Like when someone slides their hand down my thigh

Of course I say no and of course they put it right back

'Til this day I've wondered why I was still alive

Why am I still breathing?

Why am I still waking when I knew I dug deep enough last night.

After each failed attempt

After the silencing of every demon

I still smiled my favorite smile

A crimson smile  

This poem is about: 
Me

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