I smile
I had a one way ticket to a place where all the demons go
Where all my broken dreams went to die
The place where my soul tried to fly
But I still painfully forced a smile
I hid my demons within me
In hopes they would stop screaming enough for me to think
But they never did, they only got louder
So I hid in my room
Drowning in my own tears
Suffocating in my pillow
But I still woke up with a smile full of regret
Don't let them see your weakness
Don't let them see you fall
Never give your bully the satisfaction
No means no but somehow it gets confused with yes
Like when someone slides their hand down my thigh
Of course I say no and of course they put it right back
'Til this day I've wondered why I was still alive
Why am I still breathing?
Why am I still waking when I knew I dug deep enough last night.
After each failed attempt
After the silencing of every demon
I still smiled my favorite smile
A crimson smile