Girls
I want to be your paper doll
Sew Everything
Tape it up
Strap it on
Glue it to my skin.
Modeling became my best prize to win
They saw the people dying for beauty
Transforming their bodies so drastically
Shaping them like marble, bone and paper.
I became jealous
Of eyeliner fonts written in silver on the magazine cover
The bullets as shiny as their highlighter
You can Hear their shots in the streets
Slipping sleeping beauty into them like Rophys in their plastic asses
Sweating glasses of rubbing alcohol.
I may not like the taste but i always drink it all.
Respectable
She enjoys dressing modestly,
Her skin is not an accessory
She has money enough to be comfortable
But not enough to be classy
Shes sassy
And intellectual
And everything my grandma would neglect was hers
She cherishes
Clean fingers and dirty work boots
Under collared shirts
Not v line neck lines
Pale skin
Cleavage like coke lines
Cleaving the clothes line
Broke
From the rape weight of your unconsensual far too conventional shopping date...
Respectable
Be a lady,
Silent
Seen and not heard
Fuck it
Speak and be heard
I care about your words
Your worlds
The perfect paradoxes you create over breakfast,
Pray for the body of my grandmothers daughter
Close the casket it’s my bedtime.
Grandma your pearls don’t fit my feminist neckline
My words are too thick for their polished white droplets
Small enough to fit through the ideal feminine eyelet.
Healthy
Something I’ve never seen
A beautifully encapsulated dream
An innovation like the steam engine chugging through my subconscious
As I watch perspective lovers chugging beers in college
Spending daddy’s wallet on cocaine and nail polish
Selfish
No.
Retract that application or face denial
Because I’m worth more than a Xanax and a nail file
I have worth that rivals worlds of hatred and petty problems
Lips breasts
Tits mouth
Words and slang
That fits the pouch of tobacco my uncle spits from.
I want to be a powerful mom
A loving wife
With a steady job
Because you can take that love is love sticker peal it of its paper and stick it to my skin
My own mind can be powerful and meaningful again
I’ve seen people dying for Hollywood causal infidelity
Messy
Dishonest and lacking integrity
But my love is 5 demential
Smart, Respectful, caring, funny, and consensual.