Everything just shattered,

It all went completely wrong. 

And no matter how hard I try,

I just can't seem to move on.

It just hurts to let go and nobody gets it.

I'm just so damn tired,

Too tired to fix it.

Sometimes I just try,

I try to forget.

But no matter how hard I try,

All the memories seem to stick.

Sometimes I want to die,

Just to escape all the pain.

It just hurts all the time,

I'm so fucking drained.

Sometimes I'm happy,

I mean sometimes I smile.

But to be completely honest,

It hasn't been real in a while.

Sometimes I hate everyone.

Sometimes people make me sick.

Sometimes they drive me crazy,

I swear I can't take it.

I have reminders everyday,

Of all the pain that came.

I wish I could go back,

I wish I could stop this rain.

I swear I said no,

Several times in fact.

But my screams and squirms didn't matter,

He was already in the act.

He had already decided,

He already made up his mind...

He wanted to destroy me,

Completely this time.