Dreaming Normal
I remember you taking aside one day and telling me that one day I could be normal
And ever since that day I aspired to be perfectly normal, for you
Soon enough it was my dream to be normal because I thought that's what you wanted
But eventually I ruined that dream
By becoming enveloped in sadness
Of course you didn't know because I hid it from you
I was afraid that if you found out I wasn't normal that your love for me would run out
But one day you found out
And I cried because I thought you wouldn't love me the same
But we never talked about it
I just cried alone wishing that I could be normal, for you
Everyday you avoided that topic
You ignored my sadness as if it wasn't even there
Of course we talked but we never talked sad
You ask me about my day and how are all my friends
But you never asked me about me
It's like you're scared that if you bring it up
I'll become even more tortured
But don't you ever think that I'm scared too
I get so afraid of the thought of you not caring about me
All I've ever wanted is to learn to be real happy again
But instead you've taught me how to fake it
To hide my feelings because you don't care enough to ask
As if asking would be a waste of time
As if I'm a waste of time
But you know i love you too much too blame this on you
So like always I'll fake it for you
I'll ignore all my scars
I'll ignore all my pain
I'll ignore all my fear
Just for you I'll put on a smile and pretend to be normal