Because I love you (scholarship entry)
He said
if you leave me
I will hang my head
through the rope made of my tears
formed from your decision to
detach
yourself from my love
He said
to prove you love me
you have to love on me
and
if you love me
you will never leave my side
you will never talk with a guy
you will never be out of my sight
unless it's saturday-boy's night ;)
He said
he loved me
and I believed him
Especially following the incident
where his sharp fist collided
with my tear soaked skin
and he proclaimed his apologies
that he would not do it again
...and agian...and again
and I stayed
and I kept him
because in a strange way
that was love then
But now I have you.
When you say you love me
I don't feel strange
when you say you're sorry
I know you will change
when you ask if I'm okay
I see the care in your face
Because I am your friend
and you listen through my thousands of thoughtless anxiety vomits
Because I understand
and you know that I can't talk about those touchy topics
Because I hold your hand
and you don't hold mine when I'm hiding beneath my blankets, from his touches and the sounds of his comments
That is why,
I know what love is
and
I love you
And because I love you I will tell you
I love you
but not too soon
Because I love you, I will trust you
to go out with other people
whenever you want to
I will tell you how I feel
without fear
I will hug you until your tears
are done-for real
Because I love you, I will accept
your freedom
to say no to me any day
any week
I will lay my hands on you
to sway along
to the voice of a violin
under the moon,
or the rain,
after a good day
I found love in you-
and I know
this doesn't have to last forever
but because I love you
I will be here
unitl we part ways-whenever.