Abuse and Pain
When I am sad
I think of everything bad
When life doesn't go the way I want it to
I try not to become blue
Sometimes I am as sad as a cat that isn't fed
Sometimes I feel like I should be dead
If problems get worse
Don't try to rehearse
Life won't give you much happiness
So try to keep away sassiness
Life can be painful
So I don't try to look to beautiful
Life can mess with your brain
So be careful what you gain
Be careful what you say
Because it will never go away
I hate having to hold a lot of pressure
Because then I have to measure
It's hard not to be a demon
Instead I figure I should be redeemin'
If life hands you some gifts
Try not to fall into the drifts
Life is full of surprises
So try to stay away from the rises
If I try to fight my fears
I might as well fight bears
I hate to fight
So I need to try not to bite
And I need to try to come to the light
Sometimes I pray
To hope things go away
Sometimes I cry
Because then I can give out a big sigh
Sometimes I wish I had no head
Because then I would be dead
I feel like jumping off a bridge
So I might as well go freeze in a fridge
Sometimes when I go to bed
I start to dread
Why I can't have a better life
So I try to stay away from a knife
Sometimes when I feel taunted
I also feel unwanted
It is hard for me to concentrate
So I need to try to illustrate
Sometimes I feel like disappearing
So maybe I should stop interfering
Sometimes things are unforgiving
So I should go missing
Sometimes when I am dreaming
I am really seeming
Like a pest
Without a good rest
Inside of me is a disaster
So I should become a pastor
I ain't gonna lie
Cause I want to die
I always hate what happens to me
Which reminds me of a catastrophe
If people were nice
Then roll the dice
Sometimes I want to weep
When I look into something deep
When I look into the snow
I just want to woe
I need some help
So maybe I should yelp
If life doesn't stop
Then I shall pop
I hate being the nuisance
But it is hard for me to make improvements
I used to be a bully
But now I am holy
Sometimes I go insane
Because of having pain
From being beaten so much
That is makes me feel sick to eat my lunch
All the pain in my heart
Makes me want to fall apart
If I had a nice dad
I most likely would never be sad
Nor be mad
If I had someone to love
I would flutter off life a beautiful dove
If I was beautiful
Then I wouldn't be so pitiful
Sometimes I start to shake
Because in my soul it feels like a stake
Sometimes I get cornered
To where I am able to be tortured
I can't be saved
So I should go off in a rampage
Maybe I should just perish
And go to the place that is so devilish
Sometimes I am so nervous
So I think about burning in the fiery furnace
Sometimes I feel like I am under a spell
That's going to send me far into hell
Sometimes I become so scared
That it makes me the most feared
Sometimes I feel so dumb
That my body becomes numb
I hate when bad dreams come true
Because then I mentally do get blue
If only I was pure
I wouldn't have to be secure
If only I had a soul
I wouldn't be getting tortured be a troll
If only I was pure of heart
I would be smart
And I wouldn't have to restart
I hope I can see God soon because he is the one true God
Because then I wouldn't be odd
And I wouldn't get hit with a rod
Nor be shift off in a pod
Why does no one care for me
Because then it makes me feel like a tree
I hate having fear
Because then I want to be killed by a bear
Sometimes I feel like a slave
So maybe I should be buried alive in a grave
Sometimes I feel like a savage
So maybe I should be sent to a jungle in a package
Maybe I should be put in jail
To make it feel like I am in hell
Maybe I should dangle from a rope
Because I have no hope
If I have rage
I might start to age
If I get eaten
Please don't start getting beatin'
Because then you will start heatin'
Why do we have to learn
Because it makes me want to burn
Why is life so painful
It just makes me want to become beautiful
Sometimes I want to fall dead
While I am dreaming in bed
If I was gone
It would mean I have won
No one cares about me
So I shall jump off a tall tree
If I went into a deep sleep
It would not even make anyone weep
If blood is to be shed
Someone will most likely fall dead
Even if they lose their head
Sometimes there is no life to live
So why should we try to survive